The first step

So, who said Healing was easy? In my 27 years of life healing has NEVER been easy. I currently have a cold. I got it from my client. I have had a  cough, sore throat, and stuffy nose for the past week. Today I wake up to mucus. Yuck! right? Wrong! My body is healing itself. Disgusting? Oh yea! But who said healing was pretty? Its not! But breathing easy in a few days will be worth a day or two  of mucusiness.

In order to heal you must make a decision every day to dive into the ugly, to confront the painful in the interest of coming out whole. But what happens when you heal and those around you don't? I tell you what happens, you find peace. You move toward personal healing with or without others permission or company.

 One of my biggest struggles has been reconciling with the feeling that in healing I am in essence leaving people that I love very much behind. And no matter how much I kick and scream, delay my own progress, or beg and plead,  that some people just won’t be taking the healing journey with me. The work is hard, and it has a tendency to get lonely but the light at the end of the tunnel is absolutely worth it. Your healing is about you. The commitment is to you. Find something to believe in. Find an entity to pray to, scream at, cry to, laugh with, and hold on tight. The journey has begun and it is yours! 

The first step is the hardest, and so is the second and the third and the fourth, but eventually it gets better. Take a deep breath,  pack a bag, and get to it!